Monday, May 10, 2010

Life Update...

No excuses, folks. I am just a very bad blogger!! I lose interest so quickly it seems and it's just another tedious thing that must be done. I'm changing my attitude though, starting NOW!!! I've been doing a lot of thinking lately and a lot of things have happened in the past few weeks. I'm still doing Crossfit at our new gym--A Star Iron. I'm also running again! I've done a couple 5k's & a 10k at the beach and signing up for a half marathon in November. A few weeks ago, I went to a nutrition workshop put on by Melissa Urban of Urban Gets Diesel and Dallas Hartwig, together they are the Whole 9. I learned a lot of great information, I knew some of it, but it was nice to hear the science behind it AND to be able to ask questions! Take a gander over at the Whole 9 site, they have a lot of good information in their blog and even offer personal services.

With me, I've been through a lot this past year and I would guess that any one of those things would've needed a year to get over. Deaths of two friends--John Velandra in January and one of my old friends from my college days died a couple weeks ago. He had quite a few health problems and I thought he was on the mend, but I guess the Man Upstairs had a different plan, as he always does. I may have talked here about my mom being sick with kidney problems & dialysis--well there's some GREAT NEWS!!!! On Mother's Day, she got a call from the hospital that there was a kidney waiting for her! It was a match, they had the surgery and she's been back home now and doing just fabulously! I went to visit my family over Memorial Day weekend and she looks great and I'm so happy that her kidney troubles are over!

Dealing with my divorce is another big thing for me, I never got any closure and probably won't for awhile. Imagine having not the best relationship, but being in denial about it and being emotionally abused. Always trying to please your spouse, doing everything you could to make them happy and totally avoiding yourself and your own needs to be healthy in the process. Then imagine your spouse telling you they don't love you anymore, what do you do then?? You centered your life around that person, uprooted yourself, moved hundreds of miles away from your only home, support him during a LONG deployment and now this!!! I tried my hardest to make him happy while we were together, I know he has problems from the deployment but there were things that I couldn't fix. There are things that I won't go into here, but I hope the best for my ex, everyone deserves to find happiness and I hope he finds it one day.

It takes a long time to get yourself back and figuring out who you really are, recreating what needs attention. One thing I've realized over the past few months is that it really doesn't matter what you have or where you are, but that you're surrounded by people that love you. Your family should be that number one priority, but everyone has issues, whether they speak to certain family members or not. I'm taking the time to get to know myself again, working on the inside & the outside, everything goes hand in hand. What you eat feeds how you feel and how you perform in the gym.

Stay tuned!!!


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